hungry!

extremely hungry right now..

had a extremely long day, very very tired now.

craving for…

Ba Chorr Meeee...

Timbre's Duck Pizza..

Manhatten Fish Market's Flaming Grilled Prawns

most of all……..

Waraku's Unagi Rice + Cold Soba and Cold Udon

Really Good Sushi and Good Sashimi

First Post of 2010

After ending year 2009, being involved directly in a miracle of God, i really wondered how 2010 will turn out.

truth to be told, it wasn’t a easy start. this year came in a hard way just at the beginning of the year. it was really tiring for me to slog through the first few weeks. i took the time off to go catch some movies not because i was feeling extra rich but just because i felt i needed to feed my soul.  many things came and happened, but through it all. God came true and God showed Himself strong on our behalf.

to be brutally honest, 4 and 1/2 years ago when Pastor started to share about a church in the marketplace, for the marketplace, to penetrate marketplace. The start of cultural mandate. When Arise & Build was launched, honestly for 4 years i was giving with raw faith. knowing how the land is limited in Singapore… i really didn’t know how God is going to come true for us. i thought, the most 8000-10000 hall and probably somewhere not so city. Last week, 16/01/10. when we started with the song ‘Magnificent’ for worship, i was really feeling something’s different in the atmosphere. i teared a little, remembering how God brought me through my years in church. i brushed aside my feelings and braced myself for the sermon. Pastor was bringing us through the times God came true for the church and when it came to the plot of lands. i was really in my heart ‘is it gonna happen’……… and pastor brought us through 25 plots of land…..  and finally he announced. WE’VE GOT OUR LAND!

WE’VE GOT OUR LAND.

it’s not just a 8000 seater hall, it’s not a 10000 seater hall, it’s a 12000 seater hall! BEAT THAT.

WE’VE GOT OUR LAND.

=)

God is good!

God’s Hand Of Protection

I’m blogging this on the first day of the new year. Honestly, I freaked out on the last day of last year.

I was on the cab, traveling at bout 90km/hr on the expressway when suddenly a car infront stopped. The car had a p-plate, so I figured the driver is new but still it was ultra dangerous to do so on the expressway. Thankful, my cab miraculously braked in time. And did not hit the front car at all. We were barely less than 10cm away from the car and there was no car behind us. Knowing the expressways on Singapore, I can only say. This is God’s protection and I’m really thankful to escape it totally. It did scared me out though. I was so sure in my heart we were gonna hit as my eyes were on the road. Thankfully, God’s hand of protection kicked in action.
All I can say now is, thank God and praise God…

2009..

i guess it’s only right for me to end off 2009 with a thanksgiving post.

2009 has been a very special year for me, and will always hold a special place in the lane of my memories.

2009, like i’ve said, has been my best year yet in these recent years. It’s not because it was especially easy, it was just because i found back my first love in God that made it the best year yet. After running away from God for quite a long while, this year, i found back the love for God and found myself to be loving God more and more each day. 2009 has been a year of many struggles and many emotional Ups and Downs for me.

Through it all, though i decided to serve God and poured my life out as a offering, i dared not say it was easy. In actual facts, it caused me so much pain and many nights my pillow was stained with my tears, it’s been one of the hardest year but it’s been the most fulfilling year because i fulfilled what i set out to do and i grew to love God more.

at this year end, i can only say i’m extremely thankful for God. God has been extremely gracious and i won’t be surviving till this year end without the grace of God and the strength He provided to let me go through this year.  I’m at a lost of what to really say to God but i owe my life to Him and i am nothing without Him. this year, i’ve learnt alot. i always thought i knew a lot, but this year became a new learning point for me to learn many things.  Learning to love God and learning to trust God and learning to serve God again. I am truly humbled by the many people who thanked me in the cell group but honestly i am nothing and only something because of God so now i offer these thanks back to God. . 2010 will be a year for me to learn more i believe, and it’s gonna get better.

but as for now, i want to thank the people in my life in 2009.

Gideon

Dearest Gid, Laoda i would call you. If i am something today because of God, you were the person who guided me to God. thank you for being there since day 1, for walking on with me every single step of the way. thank you for showing me what is it like to be a christian and to live out the calling of God upon your life by example. i remembered you always said ” beter to fail in trying to obey than to disobey in living “  thank you for teaching me what is making the right choice and choosing the right choice even when it’s not the right time. thank you for being so gracious with me. thank you for feeling the pains and the hurts that i’ve went through and thank you for knowing me like a open book.  thank you for knowing my thoughts when i don’t feel like speaking it. thank you for knowing me so well, thank you for being someone i can always count on and run to.  thank you for always always being there. thank you for being so gracious and patient with me. thank you for allowing me to seek out God in my own time, thank you for trusting me enough to let me sort things out and to serve God and to serve you once again.  thank you, how can i thank you enough? my brother, spiritual father, mentor, leader and friend. thank YOU!

and for these people in my cell group, i’ve thanked you last night but here’s a short one again

Pris, Jean and Lucinda

haha thanks girls. i thank you girls personally last night le but still i want to let you girls know, i love you 3 alot alot =)! thanks for 2009 and more to come in 2010 =) love you girls a lot!! =)

Yifang

thanks for gritting your teeth and going through the year with me. Ko Mia. i think our lives will get better in 2010 yea? =)

Buddy
haha buddy! more buddyhood to come in 2010 ya? =) let’s reach higher heights together.

COCs
thanks for the battle well fought in 2009. more victories to be won in 2010 =)

E405
i probably thank every single one of you personally last night and i can only say thank you for being the best cell group and there’s no other cell group i would rather be in. thank every single one of you. =)

Max & Mic

thank GUYS! you guys watched me grew up in a sense and i can’t thank you all enough. though we didn’t do a lot of meet up this year but i know you guys will always be there! thanks for the many years and looking forward to more years ahead. you guys will always hold such special place in my heart. =)

Ipei & Pam
i’m sorry if i were too busy this year to really regularly go out but hey i’m so proud that i call you girls my besties. =)
i’ll personally thank you girls tomorrow. hahaa! =P

fen & mel.
what do i do without you 2? =) thanks for loving me. i guess other than the Big One, and laoda, i’m always assured you 2 loves me alot. hahaha (i hope!) =P hehehe

other than that

things i’ve done in 2009 and were proud of it.

- giving BS.
- 86 for Sports Fest
- 168 for Easter
- Graduated from TP, started working
- Traveled overseas for work
- OB 09
- Thanksgiving Chalet.
- Being Buddy With Sem
- Having the 3 girls in my life – lu, pris and jean.
- Grew Closer to God
- having a space of my own i called home now
- played more ball

and many more but i got lazy to list.

all in all, thankful for 2 Gs, God and Gid. and the cell =)

Passion

Passion.

Someone once said, at the end of the day, it’s passion that keeps you going. you got to love what you do.

The past few days, i have several recounts of what happened that cause this thought to float around my mind.

Saturday

Was at Food Republic @ Wisma having dinner with the cell group, i decided to go for my usual polo bao @ toast box.
i requested one of the personnel i wanted it to be made hotter so it’s actually nicer. so the person serving me started to say i know my stuff and he started to chat about his work. toasting bread for people. he did it with such passion that it totally won me over. he was really loving what he was doing.

Monday

Surfing the net for some blackberry stuff and i saw a blackberry app on time.com “Love what you do”
passion.

Tuesday.

Went for Dennis Balcombe meeting at JW. man, that guy had such passion for the chinese that he speaks fluently in canto and chinese and in my opinion, he speaks better chinese than most singaporeans!! He didn’t allow his family to speak english at all they can only speak chinese. what’s best of all, he’s an american. he stood through the cultural revolution to see china opening up to the world. 30 years of his life went to the chinese. passion. i totally saw that he loves what he’s doing.

came back home, played around with google wave again. it was there and then i realized, the guys at google have passion for the users. this is why google have been so revolutionary. Google Wave, Google Talk, Google Desktop, Google Voice, Google Calender, Google Mail, Google Docs. Google changed the way we do internet today. Gmail changed the way webmail is today. the reasonwhy google rocks its because the peeps at google love what they do. passion. (okay i’m a google fan)

and i remember for myself passion got me to a lot of places.
passion got me playing competitive basketball for a good 6 years.
till today, i miss the sound of the roaring audience in the stadium.
i miss the loud cheers of “圣中！ 圣中！” i miss the sounds of the shoes against the courts.
i miss the sounds of a perfect shot made. i miss the tough trainings (though i’ve had hell, but it sure got me trained up in my determination and perservance.)

till today, i’m still playing leisure basketball. passion.

passion got me studying God’s word and indulging myself in the word of God.
passion got me serving God and running to jurong to serve when i was younger.
passion. Passion grew my hunger for God. i just can’t get enough of God.
i still can’t get enough of God today.passion.

at the end of the day, when excitement is gone. when novelty is gone. what keeps you going is passion.

in the past when i was playing ball everyday, someone asked me how can you do that. i answered. passion. for the love of the game.

today, if anyone asked me how can you keep on going on in Christ. i know for sure my answer would be. passion. for the love of God.

and how do i love? 1 jn 4:19 we love because He first loved us

one of the definition of passion from dictionary.com

11. (often initial capital letter) Theology.

a. the sufferings of Christ on the cross or His sufferings subsequent to the Last Supper.

b. the narrative of Christ’s sufferings as recorded in the Gospels.

isn’t it interesting that Christ’s sufferings is known as passion too?

passion for who and what?

it’s passion for you and me that causes Him to go the Cross.

passion of the Christ. He’s simply saying “I LOVE YOU”

know what? God’s crazy about you. uh-uh, you didn’t read wrongly. He is crazy about you.
crazy enough to come to the world as a Man to die for you and me. what passion.

Psalms 30:5 MSG

He gets angry once in a while, but across a lifetime there is only love. The nights of crying your eyes out give way to days of laughter.

see it? Across a lifetime there is only love. Across a lifetime, no matter what God loves.

Passion.

Godliness With Contentment

1 Tim 6:6 Now godliness with contentment is great gain.

it was only on saturday, during service, as i was sitting there in the presence of God did i ever understand the true meaning of godliness with contentment is great gain. in the past week, a lot of things that has happened that caused me to think alot.

it’s true that in this walk of God, i’ve seen a lot and know a lot. i’ve seen many fall and many went on. i’ve seen many walked but gave their soul to the world. choosing friends, money and many other things over their walk where God is no longer a factor. they knew God as a Savior but never went beyond that revelation to know many other aspects of God. Hence, when they no longer need this Savior, they start to leave the walk. the sad thing is that, many never got to really know God the Father. the ultimate revelation of who God really is.

it was there and then as i think of all these people, have i known that if one being Godly and having GODLY contentment is great gain that you can be simple and just enjoy living and loving and serving God. if one being godly but being contented in the wrong way can get complacent. and if one being godly but being discontented in the wrong way can get extreme and greedy. therefore, one who is godly and having a godly contentment for the things of the world yet a holy dissatisfaction for the things of God is great gain. i pray ill be someone like that. =)

on a lighter note,Christmas is coming. i’m really excited to have a good christmas and thanksgiving because i feel that this year definitely deserves to end well.excited for christmas services and also the harvest. i’m so going to zoom in on that and visualize. i believe with the entire being of my heart, E405 will grow. We will reach one at a time!!!! and we will have a good thanksgiving together as a family, a cell group.

my heart is filled with expectancy and gladness. Can’t wait! =D

Living With Confidence In A Chaotic World By David Jeremiah

 

New York Times Bestseller, David Jeremiah is back with his sequel to his first book “What In The World Is Going on?”. In his first book, Dr Jeremiah idenitifed 10 prophetic clues that are coming true in our own generation. Knowing this, Dr Jeremiah now comes back with 10 habits or aspects to live confidently in this chaotic world of ours today. Habits that we must keep and establish that will form a pattern for living with certain hope in our uncertain times.

They include how to stay:

 

* Centered in Christ

* Committed to the Word

* Compassionate toward others

* Connected to the church

* Consistent in your walk

* Calm in your heart

* Certain of His coming

* Confident in your faith

Such are the basic truths that most of us forgo along our walk in this chaotic world and here Dr Jeremiah brings such truths back to light once again in a easy reading manner. Though a easy read but definitely thought provoking and essential for our walk. This book definitely pushed us to walk the narrow way of God and teaching us to stay firm in Christ with the chaos arising around us. It will worth the money to add on to your reads.

Greater things have yet to come.

i once blogged that in everything that we do, we must have the heart.
even more so today, this fact rings loud and clear within me.

this year has been a special year somewhat for me, and in all things i’ve learnt alot.
Learning to trust God again, learning to love again.
it has been a year full of ups and downs.

someone once said, friendship is found upon common mistakes. it’s when we shared a common experience that the friendship becomes valuable. this year, it’s been a year of new findings for me as well, i found some great people whom i dearly call them friends. i found some great co-workers that we ploughed and worked hard for together. As i was recapping the year just now with some friends, i can’t help but to thank God of the many victories and breakthroughs we’ve had this year. Now, i pray with all of my heart that those who have went through such experiences with us, to recall them and remember how we fought through everything as one. Truly, when we come together as one, it’s when things starts to happen. Therefore, let’s come as one together again this end of 2009. it’s the 13th of november today, there’s still a good 48 days to make things happen.

It might have been a rough edge this few months, but i ain’t quite ready to just let the year end like that. for the Lord promised, the latter shall be more glorious than the end and i believe with all my heart it is so.  i’m not going to go down without a fight =) 没看见那天高地厚不肯放手. and i won’t =) i’m believing for greater things to come this november and december.

AS ONE.

Disappointments

Disappointments, I guess has been part and parcel of life.

Disappointments comes from missed-appointments.

Today, I felt disappointed with a certain someone. But I guess its okay, I trust and believe God things will work out eventually and turn disappointments to new appointments.

It has always been a question of eventuality.
So though disappointed, life goes on, and eventually I believe the certain someone will come back.

You know, it has never been that the cell is this, the cell is that. I guess, at the end of the day no one is perfect. We are all trying our best to love, so am I. So while I’m not perfect in loving yet, please forgive me. I’ll strive to go on to perfection and I believe all of us is trying. Do know, we have not forgotten nor have we blamed. We have not forget anyone or intentionally left out anyone. We are just waiting with open arms for the return of some.God is love and still is. We love and we will continue to.

Come back. Back to your First Love.

Willingness

alright alright, it’s time to get off my lazy blogging bug and come back to blog.
i was looking through my past posts and trying to decide what to really update cause it’s been that long.

many things have happened during the past month. some good, some bad and some not so good.
some got me really emo but most got me thinking. but well i’m generally happy to announce that i’ve met up some friends which i’ve been wanting to. but of course, there’s a whole lot of friends i’ve been wanting to meet up too.
Been so busy this year that i have neglected a lot of my books. well here’s a shout out to my books, “my love, i’ll come back to you soon” corny i know, but i do love them. haha.

a recent event got me thinking bout the parable of the sower that Jesus mentioned bout how some grounds are good, some grounds aren’t. it was clearly shown to me these few days. felt a little discouraged and disheartened but all is good still i guess. i saw something on facebook that day it says “if all else fails, try loving” how true. It felt to me that, hey it’s time that my heart gets an enlargement to love more. Well, love isn’t complicated so let’s  try not to complicate things here. i just simply want to love God more and love people more.

was in the midst of thinking of bout some stuff, that it came to me that the willingness to withold nothing is so important. i shall try not to touch on this right now as it’s going to be part of something i’m sharing on friday. you know willingness in life is so important. It all takes a willing heart.

It takes willingness to serve.
It takes willingness to love.
It takes willingness to give.

so really, if we are not willing in loving, we are not loving. It takes willingness to love someone when its hard to love, and without love, we are nothing. Strangely, willingness also produces much strength and creativity. Coming to the end of 2009, i only ask the Lord of few things. One of which is that i may stay in His house forever and the next would be Lord, cause me to love willingly.